An Open Letter To My Firstborn
To my sweet baby girl,
Let me start by telling you that these last four and a half years have been the best years of my life. You have brought so much happiness, peace, and love into my universe. You made me a mother and taught me the definition of unconditional love. You’ve inspired me to grow, to bend, and to give to the world differently. I’ll never know how I got so lucky, but I’m extremely grateful that your spirit chose me to be your mama. You changed my life! You gave me a purpose that I, for sure, had no idea I was meant to serve.
I know you believe mama knows everything but the truth is, I knew nothing till I was blessed to know you. When you’re a first-time mama, there’s so much you’re unaware of. Thank you for learning along the way with me. We’ve had our successes as well as our fumbles, but I wouldn’t wish to experience motherhood in any other way.
This next phase of life is going to a real transition for us all. Just a heads up—once again I’m going to be learning alongside you. I’ve never been a mama of two before, the same way you’ve never been a big sister before. We’re both going to make mistakes, we’re both going to have moments of frustration, and we’ll probably both find ourselves in situations where we’re unhappy with each other’s behavior, but baby girl, please know in your heart that these moments won’t last forever. In the scope of what the rest of our life looks like together—these trying times won’t mean a thing. There is nothing in this world that could ever change the way I love you.
Before things get turned upside down and messy—before our family rhythm becomes all discombobulated and chaotic, I just want to thank you for your patience and understanding. I know learning how to share your mama is going to be hard, but let me tell you this—you were made to be a big sister! You have this gift of being conscience, empathic, loving, helpful, and considerate to everyone you know. The way you love life and the world—the way you feel every emotion with your big heart is so incredibly inspirational!
I don’t think I’ll ever forget last week when we took you to see the movie Aladdin. You were so overcome with sadness because Princess Jasmine got on the carpet to go for a ride with Prince Ali. It’s the most epic part of the movie, and all you were worried about was that Jasmine had left her tiger behind in the castle. “But the tiger will miss Jasmine. Who will take care of the tiger, mama?” You cried.
You, my darling, have a heart of gold!
Princess, please know, even though mama’s heart will grow to make room to love another and even though our family will have a new baby for us to all take care of, that my love for you is unwavering. The bond we’ve built will never be broken. We are thick as thieves!
You will always be my first born, my first baby, and my first taste of true expansive, unlimited, earth-shattering love. I wouldn’t be me if there were no you!
I LOVE YOU!